You've haven't speak to me for the past few hours. Yes, i know. I feel it. Don't you think i don't want to speak to you? I do, want to speak to you. But do you? I never had the intention of ignoring you even from the start. It was you. Even i text you, you always reply me with those cold answer like 'I don't know.' , 'No' , 'Okay' . This was all the replies i got from you. Though you've reply me with those replies, did i ever reply back those boring replies like what you reply me? No, i didn't. I always reply with an enthusiastic replies. I've tried my best. You've been giving me a cold tone even in our conversation. I've try my best by replying an enthusiastic replies. But it seems that you didn't appreciate with it. & there are times, when i'm seriously gave up and lazy. I just reply you with a boring tone. I see no reason why must i continue with all my enthusisatic reply when you don't appreciate it. I'm tired, exhausted. Don't you feel that too?

Just today, during the few hours time we spent together. We've not been talking to one another. You think i felt great? Felt awesome? No, i don't. I felt like you're ignoring me and are you? Like hello, i didn't ignore you! So please don't ever bullshits about me. I just don't understand. I wanted to talk to you but i just can't. It seems that my mouth is glued. I just can't speak out. I'm no longer as talkative as last time when you're around. I just can't. You can claim that i've change. I admit. But have you thought who have change me after those misunderstanding of both of us? You think that i feel happy when we had misunderstandings? No, i don't. I felt rather bad like how you feel. You think that i don't want to go out with you? Yes, i do want to go out with you. But, have you ever thought what will it be like if i go out with you? No topics to talk about and is seems that two strangers going out together. I can imagine how it will be like. Trust me, i'll never be wrong.

You may think all those excuses were all bullshits, but that was real. You may think it was a lie to cover up myself, so be it. I've done everything i can. I've say what i wanted to say to you. You say you didn't trust me as much as last time. Fine, it's alright. I just need you 40% of your trust, i'm happy with it. I can joke. But when it comes to serious time, i'll be serious. & so, when i say that, I miss you and I love you. I do mean it. I really do. You may think, it's again another lie. But what can i do? I can't force you to believe right. I'm not you, i'll not understand you. But i'm your friend, i've try to understand you but i fail. I try to satisfy all your needs, but i fail at times. I try to make you happy, i did. I try to help you at times, i did. But what fails me was making you disappointed, sad and angry. Don't you agree?

Yes, i may not be your best friend like how close were we last time. I've never thought of ruining this friendship. I just need a happy friendship. I didn't want to have those backstabs and betrayal incident because i've enough of those in primary school & it's really childish when i sees it back. Happy friendship builds up when both parties have trust with one another. I do trust you so much than you trust me because i've try my very best to be your good friend or even best friend. & perhaps, now, i've ruin this friendship unknowingly. But don't you realise you yourself also ruining this friendship unknowingly? I'm not trying to blame you on everything. But both parties which is both of us are also at fault. I admit, do you admit it as well?