You text me yesterday and i was really surprised. I didn't expect that you'll text me because of yesterday incident. And eventually, you did sms me. So, you gave in to me, ain't you? I guess you were giving in to me. But that was my guessing. But i was really glad that you had sms me last night. Though we had a sarcasm conversation all the way. Perhaps, just this sarcasm conversation narrow our relationship. Basically, i felt that, those few weeks we've not been meeting up had cause our relationship to be drifiting away. Thus, through those sms i hope it'll narrow our relationship. However, it fails. Upon not narrowing our relationship, but it cause a hell of it to our relationship. Drifting further and further little than i expected. Don't you agree?

But today, i texted you. You didn't replied me for the whole day. Questions run through my mind. I wonder did you text me just because you were bored yesterday? A temporary conversation to kill your time. Well, i don't think that all this bothers you. I may be in a wrong of wondering this kind of stuffs. I need those secure. I'm human being, i have feelings, i've thoughts. I am those paronoid kind of people. If you don't reply me, i felt something is wrong. I felt you're ignoring me. I don't know why i've those feelings. But i am sure that i'm not like this when i'm in my primary school where i'm so happy each day or whatever shit.

Your lil bits of stuff i've remembered. Your love notes, i've been keeping it. Every love notes, i would say. I didn't bear to throw away. I've the most memorable memories with you this year. & just a few weeks of not meeting up, our relationship getting futher and further till we've to be like a stranger in a room for few hours. You joke, you prank. Every prank, i've forgiven you though i got super fed up and reply you with a diao face. I meant you can prank on me. But don't prank on those big issue. I got a shock out of my life. Don't you agree? You joke, i didn't know when to believe you. But still, i believe your every words, 100% issue. Did i say, 'Sorry, but i don't know when to trust you' or those shits? I didn't. I still believe you because i know you were a good friend of me. I trust you like there's no tomorrow. I trust you like my close ones. I often trust too much that i got betray unknowingly. Yes, call me a loser.

I'm always a loser in friendship. Never a winner. Never once.

I can't let go every moments i've with you. Never. You can let go all those memories, moments i spent with you. But i can't. Because it has etched deeply in my heart, my mind.